Shalom! Damai sejahtera buat saudara-saudari yang dikasihi dalam nama Yesus Kristus. Dalam blog ini saya akan menceritakan kesaksian saya sepanjang menghadiri ibadah Penuaian Jiwa Borneo di Penampang sejak 2 hari yang lalu. Saya tergerak hati untuk mengikut ibadah ini pada kali pertama ia diberitakan. Saya sudah pasang niat awal-awal dan bersiap untuk pergi. Sebenarnya saya teringin sekali pergi kerana pengkhotbahnya bukan calang-calang orang. Ps. Philip Mantofa, siapa yang tidak kenal? Beliau merupakan seorang hamba Tuhan yang benar-benar diurapi dan dipakai. Pada waktu itu, saya benar-benar mempunyai kehausan dan kerinduan. Saya teringin sekali mendapatkan ketenangan jiwa (saya akan ceritakan sebentar lagi nanti). Oleh itu, saya berfikir dan 'set' terus dalam hati saya bahawa saya tetap akan ke Penampang walau apapun yang akan terjadi. Hari berganti hari, dan waktu semakin dekat...
My fears. They finally come together. I knew that this day will come. But, I'm still not ready to face it. I found out stuffs that I wish I would never face. I hate goodbyes. I hate being apart from someone I love. I hate the fact that we won't see each other anymore. There's too much things going on inside my head and I don't know what to do. I wish I never had feelings. I wish this would never happen. I can't handle the heartache. I can't handle the separation. Because I know that eventually we will lost contacts. I wish we won't. I don't want to. My heart is aching. For some reasons. For someone. I don't wanna be far from you. I never want you to walk away from my life. I know that people come and go. But I wish I could hold on to you and make you stay. I need you in my life because I love you. More than anything else in this world. But, I want you to be happy with your decision. With your choice. No matter where you go or no mat...
Guys, today I'm gonna talk about genderfluid. What is genderfluid? denoting or relating to a person who does not identify themselves as having a fixed gender. It means, sometimes you would feel like a guy or a girl. Or even both. This is me. Both. Not my twin because I don't have one. Hahahahaha! So, I'm gonna tell you how does it feels like to be genderfluid. Being neutral is one of the best gift. Why? Because you can do both. You can do what guys do or vice versa. But also, you will get a lot of annoying questions. Like:- Hey, you're a girl. Dress like one. Or, are you a T (tomboy)? Or even! Are you a lesbian? And more! Ugh. I got these questions especially from my family. Just because I dressed like boys. I'm stronger than I should be. I play rough sports. Look. I do not defy myself as a guy because physically I'm a lady no matter what I feel inside. Now, people! Asking people these questions are very rude. Extremely R...
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